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in this world where only the movements accompanied by melodius tune creates a pathway for my journey... i twirl around in this mist of cconfusion trying to find the meaning of life, understanding my true self and accepting that beautiful love requires hard work...

stubbornly trying to be true to what i believe in, struggling to stand strong about my principles in life and perhaps, willing to believe in miracles...

welcome to shu ying's life, my life...

qoutes...of the month

"time is merely a way to make you realise how beautiful life is if you take the chance to treasure and enjoy every single second there is..."

"there are always opportunities out there within your grasp...life's challanges and obstacles are not valid excuses not to succeed! strive only for the best!"

"be who you are and never sway..."

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mariah carey, christina aguilera, shakira, alicia keys, delta goodrem, sarah connor, ashanti, coco lee, celine dion, utada hikaru, mandy moore, amy mastura...

lee lessack, billy gilman, ronan keating, shayne ward, nelly...

backstreet boys, secondhand serenade, boyzone...

richard clayderman, jim brickman, vanessa mae...

tunes absolutely stuck in my mind

almost here, drowning, heaven, graduation (friends forever), magic words, music is the key, nobody else comes close, no promises, someday we'll know, that's my goal, your call...

totally engrossed in

robin cook, john grisham, the hobbit, lord of the rings, enid blyton, tintin, sophie kinsella, eoin colfer, jonathan stroud...

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annick goutal petite cherie edp/edt set
katherine hamnett chrono watch
victorianox chrono watch
backpack round the world

fellow dancers

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yong le
jo

spin around

brenda starr
luann
real life
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007

*sighhhhh* i am again doing last minute assignment...why am i stuck in these four walls of procrastination? i'm mentally exhausted... the only time i remembered studying malay was in form five and that was like eons ago!!! i have to base my part on teori utilitatianisme, egosime, kemoralan sosial and eksistensialisme... yeah, i know... you are probably thinking what -isme, what eksisten... i've to think, phrase a sentence out, translate it out (all mentally done) before typing it out then reading the sentence again to see whether it made any sense... plus, i was informed only yesterday that there is a MINIMUM page for my part : 12 freaking pages!!!

did a spontaneous presentation today...lolz i didn't even know what the heck i was rambling about in front there...apparently, according to my lecturer, i would adapt to changing environmentS easily, based on my outlook and way of presentation... lolz i don't know whether to agree with him... it depends on the situation i guess... lolz *shrugs* anyways, he probably knew i was just putting everything together right there and then... didn't comment much on what i was saying so i probably said things that made sense... *shrugs* thank goodness it was an informal presentation...

it's 11pm and all i had since i woke up was 3 ferrero rocher...

tomorrow, i have to prepare myself to receive my endocrinology mid-term results...
*the one with insane numbers of questions to be completed within an hour*

and tomorrow, i only have one miserable one hour lecture from the one miserable lecturer (above)... and violin lesson at 3 plus which i might just skip... *shrugs*

was planning to go ice-skating tomorrow but i guess, looking at the circumstances, i might have to postpone it... *sigh* been postponing it for a year plus already...why does sunway pyramid has to be sooooooo damn far?

the only entertainment i had since yesterday was a boy carrying a bagpack while doing his presentation in front of his coursemates and lecturer...hmmm perhaps it was about a bagpack??? lolz and that was yesterday...

i've only managed to write 4 pages so far....... HELP!!!



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Sunday, March 18, 2007

don't even know where to start... lolz... okay, let me try to recall last week's events... it seems sooooo long ago... and i was talking to mun kiat over dinner just now only to realise that saturday was yesterday... gosh!

hahaha *flashback* all i recall is that i had a microbiology assignment on ilya metchnikoff (one of the guys that i'm learning to respect...okay, i'll talk bout him in another blogging session lolz) and principle of nutritions (pon) mid-term on friday... started doing my assignment at 6pm (?) lolz (was watching the latest episode of house and a little catching up on heroes... =P) dwelled here and there... contributed my part in cooking...ate and chit-chat (what was i thinking with time not on my side?! typical old me... lolz) then continued until about 4am!!! (plus printing...had to go hunt for A4 papers, ran out of them...lolz) and then, chat for awhile before lying on my bed trying to study nonsensical stuff in preparation for my pon mid-term...fell asleep...woke up in time for 9am lecture (which i think was an amazing achievement! heck, i don't even wake up in time for my 10.30am class! ooops) went to class...listened while studying...then, went to the exam at 11am...i think i flunked it...damn! (i mean hello, how would i know what's the percentage the average daily nutrient intake level that meets the needs of all healthy people in a particular life stage and gender goal?! the answer, by the way, is 97-98%, which i screwed up) and loads of crappy stuff...urgh! finished before 12pm...was supposed to have lab class at 2...so, 2 hours to waste away...schiesse! i went to the music room only to realise that the piano's booked all the way till 3pm...darn! then, hanged around with cj and ynie, listening to them playing the "ku-zheng", then finally when reality finally reached my brain that there's absolutely no way i'm gonna get my fingers on the piano before 2pm, i headed over to the library only to be told that the computer system is down...so i ended up reserving three books...what else could go wrong?! then, had lunch...miserable chicken rice and can drink...before heading to the lab...only to be told that the culture's NOT READY so class is cancelled!!! argh!!! good that i can go back earlier but i just threw away my two hours for nothing...i could have taken an earlier bus back to penang!!!

so... fine, i rush to catch the uni bus, which luckily was still there...met ynie who's a sweetheart... she offered to carry my lab coat and "kiam hu" back so that i don't need to drag them all the way to pg!!! yippee! THANKS YNIE!!! you're an angel! =) lighter bag... so there i was on the way to the bus station with only my pink-sylph bag!!! *big wide grin* the lightest baggage i've ever carried back! =P then had my another coursemate to accompany me all the way, in the lrt, to masjid jamek, where i transit to star lrt to get to pudu...went there only to realise, to my utter horror, no more tickets available!!! konsortium had a 4pm bus...i arrived at the bus station at 5mins to 3...i was so impatient to get my body and soul onto the bus that i actually rejected the offer and took up the bus that was beside me scheduled for 3.15pm departure...what on earth was i thinking?! i was shocked when she told me i had to pay 30bucks!!! the normal ticket's only 27!!! what a leech! she mumbled something about you know la, it's school holidays now, so you know la, banyak orang, you know la, then, gave me that look, then said you know la (again!) i tried to negotiate with her then just gave up cause i was too impatient to just get my feet on penang grounds... gave her the money and went to wait... damn, it was scary and freaky... i began to regret... 3pm came and gone... 3.15pm came and gone... 3.30 came... then, i met this really sweet and gorgeous malay gurl and we stuck to each other...scared to the core that we were being cheated and afraid that we would be kidnapped to goodness-knows-where!!! after awhile, we were "escorted" to another part of the bus station...stood there like idiots waiting for the non-existent bus...then, after they were satisfied that we made the statement that we were a bunch of idiots standing in the middle of nowhere desperately calling out for attention, they made us walk all the way OUT of the bus station only to stand (again!) by the side of the road, looking like pathetic idiots under the rain! waited there till 4pm then, satisfied that we are drizzled with poluted water, we had to cross the killer road before pushing and tugging our way into the bus... (free seating and believe if you have seen the condition of the bus, you would squeeze and tug as well to get places at the front part of the bus... not that i need to since i was petite i just stood there and thanks to their pushing, i ended up in front of the steps without acting like a barbarian since they helped me there instead of helping themselves... lolz) ahhh! finally in the bus! was supposed to sit together with the malay gurl but since i found a single seat, i saved one in front of me for her... =) then, we waited AGAIN for goodness-knows-what before the journey actually started... i gave up looking at the time... i knew i would be dishearten at the delay... after being satisfied that they (the bus driver and his companion) waited for air, they finally started the journey... *psst, the chair was extremly comfortable despite the horrendous surrounding... lolz i called my mum to inform her... she panicked more than i did! hahaha she was like, why didn't you buy konsortium, how did i end up in that bus, is it safe and all those motherly question, (thank goodness my amah didn't know, i think i'll get calls every five seconds or so) then she said, are you sure the bus won't break down or sth? i said (trying to be convincing enough) no, it won't... don't worry... 10-15 mins later, guess what? the engine started spluttering like it drank too much water... HELP!!! schiesse! i was like thinking... mum, why did you have to say that?!? although i know she has nothing to do with it... thank goodness after (15-30mins) it started making heavenly engine sounds... *phewwww*

journey then continued... i was sooooo bored that i actually took out my pon notes to flip through and it did what all notes are supposed to do...i fell into sweet but scared dreams... afraid that i would wake up in thailand or sth... loz... the next moment i opened my eyes, my notes were scattered on the floor underneath my seat... and i was at this really ulu place... eeeek! then i saw the universal sign for girls and guys... okay... no way i'm going down...then i realised schiesse! i'm the only one in the bus... okay...maybe going down is a good idea after all... the malay gurl was waiting for me outside... we ended up buying drinks and kaya pau...continued our journey after more than 30mins break.... apparently this guy actually paid the toll to go to this particular rest place...i stayed awake for a moment or two to make sure we were actually on the real NSE before i went to dreamland... woke up after the moon rised...decided that i had enough scary dreams and should start noticing where the bus is heading... mum called every now and then till my hp ran outta batt...well, my batt was like 2 bars anyways... so, she didn't get to call much anyways... luckily, i managed to make arrangements to meet her near the juru toll instead of sg nibong bus terminal in penang before the battery went flat...

okay... i looked... and looked... and look... YAY! after eons, i finally saw the toll! man, was i glad! went down the bus, schiesse! where's my mum? why is my hp dead? where's the public phone? okay, stay calm, toll toll, hmmm... toll should have public phones... walked a bit and bingo!!! called mum and she told me that she's already here? WHERE?! shell...what shell? i started to panic...a little, i thought i went down at the wrong stop or sth... then, i was like stay calm....and open your already tired eyes...could barely see the shell sign (has yet to be completed so no lights or whatsoever life-form) in the dark....i was like ok fine, let's just walk and then decide... then saw mum!!! YIPPEE!!! yes!!! home sweet home!!!

we talked and talked until we reached home... YAY!!! amah!!! man, i missed her sooooooooooo much!!! i gave her a big bear hug...hahaha dinner's ready! warmed and delicious... i miss her cooking!!! walked up and down my home sweet home before finally taking a looooooong hot shower (man, it feels good to be back home) and settling down to eat!!! lolz amah sat down and accompanied me...then ahhh...nice comfortable bed!!! before that, i went to chit-chat with mum and dad for awhile and took back my me to you bear... they left my poor darling to collect dust and didn't even bother to give it an occassional hug...the poor thing...

next morning, i simply refuse to wake up...if it wasn't for my appointment with the chiropractor, i would have just kept on dreaming... lolz supposed to be out by 9 and reach before 10... lolz after my usual dwelling and touching the piano, my fam managed to get me out of the house by 9.20 and reached seagate with ample time to spare...my mum dropped me and sent my amah to my aunt's place to attend a wedding dinner... who said amahs can't have fun? i think she has a more active social life than me... *sigh* anyways, while waiting for the centre to open, i took a picture overlooking the sea and penang bridge though i think you can barely make out the outlines of the bright... so sue me for not having a proper camera...

then, off to the hairdresser...mum dropped me at 11 plus and went to the temple for dana...was there for like 4-5 hours...had to wait for my mum as well...she joined me later to perm her hair... lolz...here's my before and after picture...




my back feels so airy! hahaha if you get what i mean... then, went to check out my mum's boss hp...samsung SGH X820... didn't quite like it... thought it was a flip phone...long story... hahaha so, no new hp for me... okay... shopping or hanging out... mum was rather tired...so we went to visit my uncle instead... promised him that i would drop by and visit him when i'm back in penang... chitty-chat-chat till dinner time... had dinner nearby... then ended up at gembira cause my aunty was like, did you know that they are closing end of this month? lolz... i grabbed quite a handful of stuff... lolz didn't know that they had stuff that i wanted... anyways, decided to get my bus tickets... so we ended up in sg nibong...

schiesse!!! the ONLY tickets left for sunday for konsortium was 7/7.30AM! which means, out of home sweet home by 6.30AM?! that's just insane! lolz, i doubt i can even lift up one eyelid at that time...anyways, amah has this plan of cooking for me before me heading off to the land-of-not-nice-AND-exhorbitant-prices-food....there was no way mum's gonna let me sit any other buses...well, besides plusliner and nice... but i don't really like the drop-off area unless i have no choice (which was then!) ergo, there i was at the counter... plusliner only has 7am or 4pm bus... schiesse~! okay, only nice left! nice was like 58bucks!!! i finally relented with mum subsidising...only to be stuck there for more than an hour cause the damn system broke down!!! what's wrong with the system anyways? why can't it function normally when i'm around?

finally it went through but now the printer simply refuses to cooperate so i had a manual ticket... yay! out of the place!!! sent my aunt home, took some pictures in the garden on the swing, which i absolutely love and had sweet memories...then, headed to get my dvds only to be disappointed...the store wasn't opened... *sniff sniff* fine, off to fetch amah then! yippee!!! arrived back home rather late... 10plus... linger around...packed my stuff... gawd! i had to bring two extra bags! carried food, music notes and stuff... lolz i swear, the bigger bag i have, the more things i find to put in it... lolz it runs in the family... hahaha k, after playing the piano until 12am, packed, i retired to bed... switched off the lights BUT ended up yakking and giggling with amah until 3am!!! lolz we would have talked more if we hadn't laughed so much... it was good catching up with her... =D we talked about practically everything under the sun... (though i simply refuse to tell her how much i spent for my crowning glory, she would freak out and i made my mum promise not to tell her...lolz i just told my amah, you don't wanna know how much i paid...she was you sure...then looked at me and said, yeah, i probably won't want to know although her face shows absolute curiousity...mark my words, she'll find out sooner or later...she's that good...lolz)

was stirred up at 8 plus...9am...the next day...lazed around my bed before dragging myself up...took a bath and had another scrumptious lunch...10 dishes to finish!!! and that's without dessert!!! i love being at home! i couldn't even stuff in the nyonya kuih... *sniff sniff* so unfair... why can't the pos laju be laju-er?! *sob sob sob* anyways, mum was like shu ying, we are short of time...i uh huh and then ran to touch my piano before dad gave me the look and started to say something which i quickly replied, yeah, going now... then, put a sad face... lolz mum and dad managed to get me out by 10plus... that was not before i gave amah loads of big bear hugs and kisses... lolz...

arrived penang way before 11am cause dad suddenly decided not to use the ferry...darn! i could have spent that time with amah...lolz dad was a tad jealous... says he's not getting enough attention from me... lolz we ended up spending time at tesco where i bought a mag to accompany me during my lonely journey back to lonely kl...arrived at the terminal only to my utter delight to find out that i will be sitting in a double decker... lolz another long story... hugged and kissed goodbye to mum and dad and headed to my seat only to realise that i DON'T have a seat!!! but it was good...i actually ended up right in front... where i really wanted to be...when the guy sorted things out and asked me to change places... i politely asked him whether i could just stay where i was...he was cool about it... yay!!!
the first part of the journey was rather boring with only this to accompany me... so, after awhile i took out my darling, hugged it and went to oink oink comfortably... at least this time i know i would arrive safely...in one piece in kl... =P woke up at some stop... went to get my business done... when i headed back, i was like, ewww what's that smell? yuck!!! i checked my sandals, there was nothing there... okay...not me, maybe it's the lady two seats behind me since she went up the bus right after me... then i removed my jacket and darling out of the plastic bag i placed them in only to realise that schiesse! the damn water cup leaked and soaked my tuna sandwich! (sorry lady two seats behind me! hehehe) and even more gross, my darling's leg's all wet and smelly!!! it was soooo disgusting! i had to go down (again!) to get plastic bags...

it was rather a good call...ended up buying two packets of one of my favourite junk foods... would have bought more if i had more hands to carry it... lolz my poor darling spent the whole journey suffocating in the plastic bag... the poor thingy...

then, me and the gurl beside me just started talking and sharing food... man, she's interesting! she looks not a year older than 25 max but guess what, she's been working in public bank for 10 years already! heading to bangi for training to become management planner or sth...lolz me and my memory... anyways, we talked throughout the entire 2nd half of the journey (lolz i sound like i'm in a football game) we talked about her job, my course, her future, eating habits, food that we gobble down or gi tract, our lovely penang, her dislike just being in kl, camping, beaches, stars, books...


gosh! i didn't even know anybody who camp liked her! well, i do but her's is different and interesting! she told me about her camps in the jungle... and when she took a trip to pulau banting and just enjoyed herself... she's so lucky to have friends to accompany her to these planned/spontaneous campings! then, i told her about my visit to kuantan and how i absolutely loved the beaches over there... i can't believe i'm going to type this but i think i might have fallen in love with the beaches in kuantan... i know, i know...how could i?! i have lived and loved the beaches in penang for as long as i can remember... but the ones in kuantan are absolutely enchanting and breathtaking!!! too bad i didn't take any pictures!!! the beaches actually have a long stretch of soft sand...the waves were huge and captivating...makes you want to just jump in with your surf board and surf... and the shells over there are like WHOLE shells unlike the ones in penang where if you happen to find a whole complete shell, it's like your luckiest day!!! okay, maybe i am exaggerating a little but the beaches in penang wasn't like when i was small... i could remember digging for la-la and going swimming without rubbish floating all around me... it's in a sad state indeed... i wish penangnites would show more concern towards their beautiful beaches...appreciate nature more...penang is like heaven...we are the luckiest people...bountiful delicious food, surrounded by long stretches of beaches and sea, moderate living cost, loads of hills to hike, loads of ways to bond with mother nature, but what are we doing? throwing rubbish out of the windows of vehicles, into the sea, put of the apartments, practically anywhere you can think of except the rubbish bin...help save good old penang and let me love my beaches again! well, not that i don't love them anymore but i guess i'd prefer the ones in kuantan unless things start to change!!!

oh, and then we started talking about waterfalls!!! man, i can still imagine myself sitting at the sg panching waterfall in kuantan!!! it was the most beautiful waterfall i've ever seen... it even beat the one i went on the way to cameron highlands!!! the ambience, just soaking my leg in the cooling water and feeling the soft breeze and tiny droplets of water splashing on my face...it was like nothing else in the world matters...it felt so good...i wish i could go there again! *starting to dream* lolz maybe during my study break...to de-stress...lolz think i can find the time??? (highly unlikely) and then we started talking about the waterfall in penang and the miserable state it is now...i feel so sad... ='(

a little after 4, we reached ktm station in kl... we said our goodbyes and i took the underground tunnel to get to the other side and then flagged down a cab... was rather suspicious of the cab driver so i called my mum and gave her the taxi number and pretended that she was waiting for me at home... lolz... it turns out that he's a nice guy and i reached home safely... plus, i only paid 7 bucks!!! came back to realise that nobody's home... =( luckily i've made dinner plans if not i have to cook for myself... lolz since i still have time before heading for dinner, the first thing i did was switched on my comp, online and then MUSIC!!! lolz... after that, i slowly unpacked, soaked my dirty laundry, changed my bedsheet, pillow casessss, everything (so, i'm bedless tonight...okay, not really bedless since i still have my sleeping bag) took it down to the laundry shop only to realise that it's sunday and they are closed...cursed a lil then carried the truckload of laundry back up, rearranged my messy pile of music scores, spring cleaned a little and before i know it, it's already six something... man, time flies!!! showered and headed out...

darn! i think all my expenses this month goes to the lucky cab drivers...sat the lrt and went to tmn bahagia to pass emily something only to realise that i told her that i will meet her at kj lrt st!!! man, i'm getting old...chat with her while waiting for mun kiat to arrive... updated her about my life and she told me a little about hers...cause i was telling her about my latest problems and her giving me advice... she said i should start changing some of my "soft" habits... then, she drove me to the opposite side and before i left, we promised to keep in touch... lolz...

mk's hair's longer than mine!!! damn...hahaha anyways, we chatted on the way to dinner... i should remember to get the name of the band he was listening to...quite nice... schiesse! i should really improve my memory capabilities... drove to puchong to have japanese cuisine... man, i love the chawan mushi (quality's as good as the one in waka, rasa sayang hotel in penang!!! i miss going to waka!!! =( *sniff sniff*) and i really miss my raw salmonZ... the unagi sushi was not bad but the others were ok only... it was nice chatting and catching up with him... finished dinner about 10...

on the way back to my place, he ran over a dead animal...ewwwww! then, we were caught in an apparent traffic jam...which he first thought was a road block only to realise that it was an accident... the best part was the accident's not even on OUR side of the road... the amount of kaypo-ers was amazing...such a long stretch just to stretch your "giraffe" neck at the accident for 5 secs... *shakes head* then, when it came to our turn, man, it was cool! well, cool if nobody's hurt... there was this whole stretch of cars parked on the side of the road like nobody's business... then after a stretch, we saw a group of people and then, the car!!! you know the phrase drivers love to stick on their cars... you kiss,you pay and if you can read this, you should increase your distance or something? well, this car was kissing and practically underneath the other car... the "backside" of the front car was on top of the other car, touching the roof, if i'm not mistaken...maybe the driver was really reading the yellow sign and inched too near... *shrugs* oh and the vehicles was back-to-back for a long, long, long, long, long way... i felt bad cause mk still has to drive back and he has supper appointment with his gang... anyways, when we reached setapak, he stopped by shell (this time the one that's in service) and we went out to check his tyres for blood or brain splatter as he says... lolz sorry guys, there wasn't any... filled up petrol and then he dropped me... *hope he doesn't get stuck in the jam...*

okay...back and still no one at home (psst, it's 2.11am now and my housemate just got back...lolz out with her boyfriend...she's up to something, i'd bet...lolz she'd better not find her way to this blog or i'll end up cooking for a week! lolz i'm like the only one in my apartment that's single... =P) so, as i was saying...nobody's home...here i am blogging until now... lolz damn good way of spending my time, eh? lolz it's like 4.30am now... but overall, i had a fantastic time...plus, the feeling of being pampered to the core's just what i need to de-stress... =P





11:33:00 pm

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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

life is unpredictable...which is fine by me...since my life is already full of "unpredictablities"... don't get me wrong, i love and welcome challanges in life but sometimes when you keep trying...repeatedly trying to change the predicted consequences, you feel like you are stuck...confined to the world where invisible walls constrict your what seemed to be fruitless efforts... then, we start thinking what life is all about and what life has to offer us... what about what we have to offer to life? heck, i shall stop before i start jabbering, confusing the world, me included... lolz

oh, and i'm still procrastinating... i still have yet to set my priorities right... apparently, my priorities, at the moment, is house, prison break, movies, cooking, oinking, smsing, playing musical instruments and oh, and of course, blogging... anything except what i'm supposed to do...i have an assignment due friday on a famous dead microbiologist (which i still have yet to decided who the lucky guy is), test on nutrition, (what we eat, how to count the percentage of fat we have in our food, stuff like that) on friday too, and another assignment due early next week on homos...which would be really, really interesting if i didn't have to translate it into malay...

one thing i'm definitely looking forward though is going back to good old PENANG!!! hehehe i get to see my darling, my beaches (well, hopefully i have the time to drop by, feel the soft sand between my toes, feel the salty sea water splashing against my legs, rock-climb a bit, collect broken sea-shells and just feel the sea breeze against my face...i can almost feel it), keep up my doc appointment, catch up with a few friends, eat excellent nyonya food, being pampered to the core... okay... i have a feeling this weekend ain't gonna be enough...there are so many things to do...


12:26:00 am

magenta rhapsodies'


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Sunday, March 11, 2007

okay...having dilemma right now... should i have a short hairdo or just plain leave it the way it is right now? i have like until friday to decide... i would really love a new style... i've already had something in my mind but my heart feels the ache of cutting it short...

oh, and btw, remember that i said i had an exam on monday... schieβe! which is tomorrow! argggghhh! and remember that i said i haven't touched a single page? well, guess what? i've made an improvement...so up to date, i've like managed to successfully progressed to.......the second page!!!! argh!!! how am i suppose to finish it by tomorrow?!?! ='(


12:10:00 pm

magenta rhapsodies'


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Friday, March 09, 2007

schiesse~! what on earth happened to my photos in friendster?!? ALL my photos are G-O-N-E!!! argh!!!! it's nearly 7 and i'm still awake... oh, man! guess i'll just have to pretend that i did not visit my friendster page and pretend everything's there until i find the time to figure what happened and probably, who did it... lolz which is probably like never... oh, and i haven't started studying yet... not good... sooooo not good....


6:34:00 am

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darn! i should start getting my priorities right! i mean, what the hell am i doing awake at 3.38am?!? well, i know it's like the normal time for me but i'm supposed to be like studying... yeah "supposed"... i was supposed to start my microbiology assignment yesterday, finish it and i was supposed to start studying for my microb exam yest... i was supposed to study for it today and guess what? surprise, surprise, i haven't even started yet...

i came back at 6sth today... had time to laze around... finish watching happy feet (which reminds me that i really miss dancing!!! i miss the swirling, the synchronised movements, the performances, the anxieties, the thrill, and just the thought of not being able to dance makes me really depressed...lolz plus, i also miss the tangling of hands and feet and the confusion every single time i learn a new dance!!!) and prison break s2e19... and i even had the privilage to don a hydrating mask before heading to good old dreamland and dream about....... lolz housemate woke me up at 11plus...cooked dinner and then onlined all the way till now... so, so much for studying...

there's so much to do, so little time... so much passion to fulfill... so much left to figure out... so much left to understand...to love...to be happy...and contented...forgive and forget... there's a world out there to be explored... and all this to be done within A lifetime... seems impossible but i guess when you set your heart and mind to it, impossible is actually reachable... life is indeed unpredictable and as i would love to think it as, full of lovely surprises... i love surprises... :)

now, i shan't spoil this nice blogging about a "surprised" open book "quiz/exam(?)" i had during my tutorial class... i can't even finish 7 "short essay" questions within an hour so go figure about my mid-terms... this time however, since i've the "opportunity" of studying for my exams, at least (i had to stop here for a moment, there's like dog/cat fight outside my window! scary! i can't see them though, too damn dark but they are LOUD!!! eeek!) i know where to look for the answers, and even that, i can't finish scribbling!!! oh, btw it's by that lecturer i was nonchalantly talking about earlier on... okay, i'm starting already so i'd better stop...lolz

today's actually interesting...i had fun playing two piano duets with my music teacher! hahaha of course, mine wasn't perfect but hey, it's better than nothing... lolz and, i just couldn't help but cavil... i actually asked my piano teacher for a more difficult piece cause i was bored with mine and man, do i regret it! hahaha well, i'll regret it until i manage to conquer the piece, that is... dunno how long i'll take though... it looks scary but i guess if it has a nice tune, it's worth it... hahaha i definitely pity her cause she needs to stand my endless horrible tunes and mistakes till i get it right... though personally, i think she seems to be entertained by me... dunno if that's a good or bad thing *shrugs*

now, is love a good or bad thing? is being tortured to the soul and having your heart ripped to pieces part of the deal until your find the right one? and how would you know who the right one is? and if you are lucky enough to find the right one, how are they compatible? and what if the one is at the other end of the world... don't tell me that by chance that they are going to be accidentally bump together by fate... this is not serendipity... and what if the right one's there and you just don't know it... until it's too late? then what would be next step be? what is it about love that takes the breathe out of the ones who has the opportunity to experience it? we always dream about what we were exposed to especially those magical fate and faith stories...which i'm certain that they do happen in the real world, but DO they in OUR world? and then comes the other love... there's always this big question about what love is all about and how we often hurt the people we love the most... and it's ONLY in the movies that the true motives of our actions are revealed... or when we want them to "accidentally" fall upon the true motives of the actions that were done...the sacrifices that were made...

expectations are another thing to live up to... it is true that if we please everyone, we end up pleasing no one... but then, there's the question about who we are pleasing and what the consequences are... expectations to fulfill are those of ours, truly ours or of those around us? if we really ponder about it every single one of our expectations will end up revealing itself that their true progression will ultimately lead to the fulfillment of others... so, then what about us?


3:38:00 am

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